Today I woke up early and headed to school because I had a final at 10:30AM.
I got to school around 8:30, decided to go to Cafe Allegro for some coffee and pastry.
Got myself a latte and a chocolate crossiant, justifyng that I needed it for the sake of finals week.
I went there for the purpose of studying, but i knew my heart was somewhere else…
I’ve been feeling distressed, tired, and for the most, guilty and ashamed.
I am an unfaithful servant.
I’m sickend by my own sins.
Then I started reading Ecclesiastes, which talked about the different means of toiling and work. Seasons for everything.
That’s when the holy spirit met me. In my brokenness He comforted me, reminded me of His kindness and grace… And how it extends over sins that I am even unaware of.
My ipod randomly plays Soon by Hillsong.
“I will be, with the One I love.
With unveiled face I’ll see Him,
There my soul, will be satisfied.
Soon and very soon”
I think I sat there for an hour in tears…. At 8:30AM.
Just overwhelmed by His goodness and mercy.
Once again, Jesus is the lifter of my head.
My heart is at joy knowing that I can finally stand before Him in complete humility, in my brokenness that does not promote or benefit myself, but promotes the perfect love of Jesus Christ.
I feel redeemed and restored. Praise You Jesus, You are sovereign. You are a redeemer,
You deserve all of me. Thank you for loving your children the way You do Jesus. I will worship you for who you are. Not because You benefit me, but because of your Almightyness!