Dove's Eyes

19th May 2012

밤

4시다.

자는 시간 또 놓쳤다. -_-

창문으로 새들의 소리가 들려온다.

하루가 다시 시작되는 알림이다.

난 사실 이 시간때가 가장 좋아하는 시간이다.

모두가 잠들어 있는 지금 이 시간.

침대옆 창문으로 밤 공기를 들이마신다.

이 시원한 새벽 공기 냄새가 난 미치도록 좋다.

코를 바짝 대고, 이불을 뒤집어쓰고 잔것도 수십번.

그렇다 아침에 얼어죽어 감기걸린적은 수백번.

밤은 나랑 관련된 것들이 많다.

한참 우울증에 시달릴때 밤은 나의 적이였다.

적은 항상 밤에 찿아와 나를 괘롭히고,

힘도 없는난 그냥 찢기고 또 나를 찢을수 있게 냅둬버렸다.

졌다, 한 없이, 그리고 또 원 없이.

물론 지금은 다르다.

이 순간을 이젠 너무 좋아한다.

주님은 이 시간을 활용해 나에게 말하신다.

예전이나 지금이나, 모든게 주님안에 있다는걸 생각하니,

주님이 영광받으실 생각하니,

밤은 나에게 참 좋은 존재다.

이 냄새가 좋다.

너무 너무 좋다.

19th May 2012 | 1 note

Dying to LIVE: GET RID OF THE WALLS.

jeremiah209:

In the world that we live in, in almost every country, the body of Jesus is broken into many parts. There are many reasons why the Body of Jesus is so badly broken. Sometimes it’s because of the pride and the ambition of certain men. Sometimes it’s because teachings are very different, and…

(Source: xynthiah)

7th May 2012

…

새벽이다.

공부하다 잠시 멈췄다.

벌써 5월이다, 왠말이냐.

믿기지 않을 정도로 4월은 빨리 지나갔다.

자고 꺠어나 보니 어렴풋 21살이 되어있었다.

앞으로 얼마나 더 빨리 지나갈까 두렵기까지 한다.

2012년의 반년이 다가온다. 6월.

이 지난 몃달동안 주님은 많은걸 내려 놓을수 있도록 도와주셨다.

항상 싸움을 벌이지만, 완벽할순 없지만, 그래도 난 매일 싸운다.

그럴수 밖에 없고 또 그래야 한다.

희망들이 서서히 사라지고,

현실이란 세계에 다시 돌아와보니 나를 반기는건 절망과 우을증뿐.

반복되는 아픔과 죄들은 나의 목을 조금씩 졸라온다.

이제 주님꼐 치유를 부탁하는 면목도 없다. 이미 너무 많은 치유를 해주신 주님….

더이상 부탁드릴 여유도 없으며, 이젠 정말 남의 아픔과 고통을 같이 나누라 내게 계속 말씀하신다.

이제 드디어 분유를 띤 갓난아기의 느낌이다.

더 이상 내가 원하는것만 주시진 않으실테다.

분유를 띤 만큼 나를 훈계하시려는 그분의 손이 보인다.

내 상황은 언제나 똑같으나,

주님은 2012년에 나에게 많은 변화를 원하셨고,

또 그가운데 계속 변화되고 있고,

나 같이 바보같고, 정말 인간 쓰레기같은 존재가

위대하고 위대하신 주님을 행복하게 만들수 있다는것에 다시 감사한다.

그 분이 원하시는 삶을 살고싶을뿐이고 세상은 언제나 그랬듯이 험하겠지만,

그분을 만나는 그날까지 정말 열씸히 쓰임받을수 있도록 살고싶다.

그래서 난 다시 희망 할수있고,

솔직히 말하면 희망밖엔 없다.

-2012 5월 7일 새벽 2:47

24th Apr 2012 | 20 notes

lushlimited:

A Potted History of Animal Testing…

Or why we refuse to test on animals

A lot of modern chemicals were developed in the Victorian era and one of the things that the Victorians had a lot of was coal tar, which was a by-product of making the gas used in streetlamps. Not only was it abundant but it was also free, so if you were a research chemist you could get a lot of it.

So all sorts of chemicals, for example, modern fragrance materials like coumarin, were developed from coal tar. Even more interestingly modern dye stuffs, azo dyes, were developed from coal tar. So when you look at Queen Victoria sitting there in purple, that was one of the first ever new dye stuffs and it was incredibly expensive so that’s why the Queen wore it. Then they started to develop other colours through the First World War so that you could dye curtains and carpets and bedding and clothes, and it wasn’t very long before some bright spark took carpet dyes and started to dye peoples’ hair with it. And the problem with that is that it was highly allergic, so many people had dreadful reactions to it. Their tongues would swell, they would asphyxiate and die, or suffer dreadful allergic reactions and itch and be in a terrible state for several days. But that didn’t stop people from doing it because liked to have their hair coloured.

Now the other problem with these dyes is that because they are very tiny molecules, they could pass through the skin and into the bloodstream. When people who had recently had their hair dyed were studied, traces of the dye were found in their urine, and the dye stuff could be detected for up to 24 hours after having their hair dyed. Tellingly, these fairly obvious results were “tests” on human beings. When they started to test on animals they really couldn’t agree whether it had any negative effect at all. So there have been lots of tests on animals over the years and still this material is used in hair dyes and still cause problems for the people using them. So here we’ve got a series of tests that aren’t quite up to the job and it’s not surprising really because you wouldn’t expect rubbing a bit of dye stuff on a hamster or a guinea pig and then seeing what happens to them to be a very good model for a human being.

When I first started my career finished cosmetics were still being routinely tested on animals. So an eyeshadow, a lipstick, a shampoo; they would go through a series of tests on animals. That wasn’t really very nice and quite often very cruel. So we started to come up with a standard that all cosmetic companies could join to stop the testing of finished products on animals and it became a huge issue and many people wrote to cosmetic companies and basically testing of finished cosmetics on animals stopped. That was a great success.

Still, one had to look at it and think, well we may not be testing the finished goods but we are still testing the raw materials. So they were still taking the raw materials and they were testing them on animals. So we came up with this new rule, which said that if you were testing on animals we won’t buy from you. One of the most exciting things during the last government was that they banned testing on animals for cosmetics products, and did away with most of the testing on the ingredients. We had just thought that we had won that, that it was all over, that everything would be cruelty free - when a new piece of European legislation cropped up, called the Registration, Evaluation and Authorisation of Chemicals (REACH) and this legislation meant that they would be screening all existing ingredients for their safety and many of those tests would be on animals.

Now our attitude at Lush is that the best way of seeing if something is safe or not is for it to have had a long history of safe use. So if you take rosemary, people have been picking rosemary and popping it in their food or making teas out of it or washing their faces with it for at least 500 years. If you take Henna, it has been used for 2000 years at least, people have rolled their babies in it, they’ve eaten it in Morocco, it has an extremely long history of safe use. So having something with a very long history of safe use is the way we tend to work.

The situation we now find ourselves in with cosmetics is that existing raw materials, where in the past we could guarantee that they weren’t going to be tested on animals, now even well established things could be tested on animals. REACH has already begun, but when it was becoming legislation we took a big lorry-load of horse manure and dumped it outside the European Parliament in protest of these mandatory animal tests, which made us feel slightly better but probably didn’t save any animals’ lives. So for us, at the moment, what this means is that there are going to be more and more ingredients being tested where we cannot find a supplier that has not been involved, because under REACH if you are the manufacturer of supplier of any of the ingredients covered then you are obliged to contribute to any of the animal testing that the EU demands. So where do we go now on cruelty-free? Well we know we’re not going to have finished products tested on animals and we would like to create a new criteria against animal testing that includes the funding of alternatives to animal experiments. And hopefully we can raise some money to get that to happen, or certainly influence authorities to make that happen. Despite the massive obstacles to cruelty-free cosmetics that REACH has thrown up, we haven’t given up and we’re working hard every day to do everything we can to fight against animal testing and for safety through alternative technology.